ext_7681 ([identity profile] waxbean.livejournal.com) wrote in [community profile] go_exchange2009-12-09 02:47 pm

Happy Holidays, [livejournal.com profile] refche!

Title: Night Visiting
Written for: [livejournal.com profile] refche
Written by: Irisbleufic
Rating: PG-13
Characters: Pepper, Aziraphale, and a couple of OCs
Notes: Due to one small, seemingly trivial remark that Pepper made in a previous piece I wrote about her, I've decided to give her a bit of her own medicine. As per your request, [livejournal.com profile] refche, this takes place in a foreign country. Unfortunately, it is an English-speaking one. Therefore, I must heartily beg your pardon! Here's wishing you the happiest of holidays.
Summary: There's nothing worse than Christmas Night insomnia in an unfamiliar house—unless you've got somebody to share it with.



Any minute now, Pepper thought, drawing the scratchy wool blanket even tighter around herself. Any minute now, the Ghost of Christmas Present is going to appear and confirm exactly how pants this is. And he won't offer me any sleeping pills, either. She wrapped both hands around the rough stoneware mug and took a sullen sip of her chamomile tea. She didn't feel sleepy yet, and the stuff tasted wretched.

Pepper blinked at the multi-colored fairy lights garlanding the Christmas tree—the scent of pine pitch made her sneeze every once in a while—until she saw spots. Marianne had insisted she'd get used to it, and then, with a huge yawn and a slow-motion kiss pressed squarely to Pepper's lips, had slipped out of Pepper's arms, off the sofa, and up the rickety wooden staircase. Everything that she had ever heard about old New England houses was true: they were dusty, drafty, and their inhabitants seemed blissfully unaware of both of these facts.

Marianne's mother, Cleo—not Mrs. Bell, although Pepper was having a hard time thinking of her as anything else—had come down about an hour ago and draped the blanket across Pepper's shoulders, told her she could help herself to tea, kissed the top of her head, and went back to bed. She hadn't expected such kindness. In spite of Marianne's reassurances, she'd been expecting a frosty reception on account of all the nightmare stories she'd heard about homophobia in the U.S. Sure, the U.K. wasn't perfect, but the legal situation was considerably better. If they lasted another year or so, the government would let Marianne stay as Pepper's partner, no questions asked. They wouldn't even have to officially get married. Pepper wrinkled her nose. Who needed marriage, or domestic partnership, for that matter, to prove anything? She despised paperwork.

Visa applications are paperwork, Pepper reminded herself. You'll have to help Marianne deal with that.

Pepper curled in on herself, sinking lower into the couch cushions. Mrs. Bell—Cleo—was one of those sweet, batty artistic types that reminded her partly of her own mother and partly of Anathema. Pepper couldn't hate her for anything, much though one was supposed to dislike one's in-laws. In fact, Cleo was the only in-law Pepper would ever have to worry about. Marianne's father had died in a snowmobile accident when Marianne was twelve. It was a strange thought, that snow could kill anyone. The worst it ever did was bring London to a standstill for one day out of the year, or make Adam pelt her with pathetic snowballs all the way down the lane.

“Miss you, mate,” Pepper whispered. “You'd help me make sense of all this.” Her eyes lingered over the crystal beadwork angel that topped off the tree. Its head met the ceiling at an awkward angle, neck bent, giving the whole set-up a graceless, uncertain look.

Adam, the wanker, had actually been invited to Maine along with Pepper—but he'd begged off on the grounds of wanting to meet his sister's new baby boy. Pepper sincerely hoped that little Quentin was worth missing out on such weird American holiday traditions as watching The Grinch Who Stole Christmas and Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer, which were clearly designed to entertain children and badly out of date, on telly.

As for Brian and Wensleydale, neither one had a passport. Brian couldn't seem to be arsed, and Wensleydale insisted that his mum didn't want him running off anywhere until he'd finished uni. Well, that was fair enough. They were all in their third year—Marianne included, having come to England as an international student. Pepper hadn't thought of Cambridge as the sort of place one might meet girls, but sure enough, she'd dated two others before Marianne came along.

“Life's funny like that,” said Aziraphale, casually adjusting a homemade snowflake ornament. He stood beside the tree, as if he'd always been there, perfectly still except for his fingers.

“I suppose you're making the rounds,” Pepper said, tucking her bare legs up under the blanket. “Happy Christmas. I'd make you some tea, but I don't think you'd like it. Funny like what?”

Aziraphale smiled and crossed the room, and then took a seat beside Pepper on the sofa. “Like what you were just thinking,” he said. “Bad television programs. University. Finding love.”

Pepper grinned into the mug in spite of herself. She leaned towards Aziraphale until her shoulder bumped his, just hard enough to chide, yet light enough to remain fond. “Where's your beautiful boy, then?” she asked.

The angel sighed. “At home, asleep. I don't doubt you'll see Crowley when you return.”

“A week from now,” Pepper muttered. “It's so cold here. And I'm going to gain a stone.”

“My dear, it'll hardly show. You're skin and bone.” Aziraphale put an arm around her. “And I would advise eating your fill, especially with so many wholesome home-baked goods about.”

Pepper snorted into the angel's coat, which smelled of lavender and a hint of tobacco smoke. “I'd rather have some sticky toffee pudding. Mum always makes it at Christmas.”

“Ah, yes,” murmured Aziraphale, regarding the tree thoughtfully, as if he couldn't disagree.

They sat in silence for what felt like ages while Pepper finished her tea. Aziraphale was solid and comforting in much the same way that Pepper's grandfather had been while he was still alive. She leaned into the angel's warmth until it seemed to envelop her. She drifted.

“Tell her I'm sorry,” Adam said, cradling a tiny bundle in his lap. Quentin reached up with one spindly arm, grasping his uncle's thumb. “I know it was important. She wanted me to be there.”

“I think she'll understand,” said Aziraphale, peering down at the infant. “I hope you won't be offended if I say so, but he looks no more like you than your sister does. There's more of his grandmother in him, wouldn't you say?”

“No offense taken,” Adam said, half smiling. “And yeah, he looks a bit like Mum, all right.”


Pepper woke with a start. “Adam? It's all—” Oh.

Marianne smoothed Pepper's short hair. “You were dreaming.”

Pepper blinked at Marianne, who sat exactly where she was absolutely certain...

“Yes,” she said. “About Adam, who wouldn't come spend Christmas with us. Traitor.”

Marianne laughed. “I think that a new nephew trumps your best friend's girlfriend's family.”

“I suppose so,” Pepper sighed, settling back against Marianne's shoulder. “I was about to tell him it was all right. I dreamed I saw him holding the baby. He'll be a perfect, terrifying uncle.”

“No kidding,” said Marianne. “Now, are you coming to bed, or are you waiting up for Santa?”

“Bed,” Pepper said, grinning. “I think I slept through the big event anyway.”

If Marianne had noticed the new box under the tree, which bore a card addressed to both of them in Adam's curiously neat handwriting, she didn't say a word as they retreated up the stairs.


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[identity profile] random-nexus.livejournal.com 2009-12-09 10:25 pm (UTC)(link)
Wonderful! Well done.

[identity profile] secret-kracken.livejournal.com 2009-12-15 01:23 pm (UTC)(link)
Many thanks; glad you enjoyed it! My new holiday specialty, it seems, is writing stories about Pepper ;)

[identity profile] kindigo.livejournal.com 2009-12-09 11:40 pm (UTC)(link)
Ooh! I love Aziraphale visiting Pepper so long after the Who-Know-What-That-Wasn't. I love fics where they haven't all gone their separate ways afterward. Plus, seeing him act like a "normal" angel for once was at once oddly incongruous and absolutely perfect.

Love Pepper's characterization, as well.

[identity profile] secret-kracken.livejournal.com 2009-12-15 01:25 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, a sort-of-normal angel, anyway. It's more that he's making calls on people he's fond of than on all of mankind; i.e., he gives Pepper a dream-glance at his visit to Adam, as that's where he was immediately before he arrived. Er. With some time-bending, I suppose. England is five hours ahead of Maine, and it occurs to me just now that this poses some temporal complications...

Thank you ♥

[identity profile] lurkerfromoz.livejournal.com 2009-12-10 01:35 am (UTC)(link)
Yay for Pepper. Nice to see one of the others making an appearance. I'm also glad that Adam allowed them all to grow up - there's a part of me that wonders if he kept them all kids forever.

[identity profile] secret-kracken.livejournal.com 2009-12-15 01:26 pm (UTC)(link)
Strangely, it never even occurred to me to imagine that he'd keep them kids forever! It just doesn't seem his style. He's got enough love for life that I think he'd want to lead a normal one, and that he'd want everyone else to lead normal ones, too. Well. As close as our world can come to normal ;)

Thank you very much!

[identity profile] kunenk.livejournal.com 2009-12-10 05:36 am (UTC)(link)
Ooooh. Really lovely- I really like the feeling of this.

[identity profile] secret-kracken.livejournal.com 2009-12-15 01:27 pm (UTC)(link)
If I miss anything about Christmases away from home, it's that strange feeling of sitting alone in a living room that's not yours, but may one day become yours. I'm glad you enjoyed this; thank you ♥
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[identity profile] hsavinien.livejournal.com 2009-12-10 07:06 am (UTC)(link)
Awesome. Just. Awesome. Eee, girlfriend. <3

[identity profile] secret-kracken.livejournal.com 2009-12-15 01:28 pm (UTC)(link)
I do think Pepper has the potential to turn out - well, if not at least bisexual, a lovely, feisty ginger-haired dyke! Thank you for reading, my friend.

[identity profile] sirius-luva.livejournal.com 2009-12-10 07:13 am (UTC)(link)
Absolutely lovely, my dear. As someone else said, it's odd to see Aziraphale acting like a 'real' angel, doing his traditional duties, and yet it also seems to fit and you wrote him very beautifully. Though I giggled at the thought of his reaction if he knew he reminded Pepper of her grandfather. xD

A very very sweet fic about friendship and family and love that gave me the warm fuzzies. Adorable.

[identity profile] secret-kracken.livejournal.com 2009-12-15 01:29 pm (UTC)(link)
I think nearly all of the Them can't help but look at Aziraphale as a sort of grandfatherly, or in the very least...uncle-ish figure. They were quite young when they first met him, and although he never changes, a being who appears to be, say, late 40s or early 50s when you're ten will inevitably seem at least a bit old. Thank you!

[identity profile] sirius-luva.livejournal.com 2009-12-15 02:11 pm (UTC)(link)
XDDD Very true, very true. It's just that I've read more hot Adam/Crowley/Aziraphale threesomes than this sort of fic. But yours is still absolutely lovely.

[identity profile] secret-kracken.livejournal.com 2009-12-15 02:25 pm (UTC)(link)
*mystified look*

Adam/Crowley/Aziraphale, really? What will they think of next. Actually, that creeps me out more than a little bit. But I will not decry anybody else's preferences, even if I can't for the life of me wrap my brain around them ;)

[identity profile] sirius-luva.livejournal.com 2009-12-15 02:30 pm (UTC)(link)
There's a tag at the side. ;) *points* It's actually rather hot.

That's awesome, since Gaiman said once that he could barely wrap his brain around Aziraphale/Crowley slash but he's very nice about it anyway. ;)

[identity profile] secret-kracken.livejournal.com 2009-12-15 02:43 pm (UTC)(link)
I guess it comes down to the way I perceive the fundamental natures of the characters. Although I could see Adam participating in a three-way (or more-way), I can't see Aziraphale and Crowley as being up for it. For all that they're immortal and have literally seen everything under the sun, they're each of them also curiously...reserved and private, each in their own ways. It's amazing how their world always, in the end, boils down to their two-being microcosm. And that's one of the reasons I adore them so much :)

[identity profile] sirius-luva.livejournal.com 2009-12-15 03:28 pm (UTC)(link)
XDDD More-way! That made me giggle.

Aww. You do make a very very good point. They are adorable, aren't they?

I liked the You're Glowing, Angel art gift because it was just the two of them in a little circle, like they were in their own little world, just the two of them. <3

[identity profile] secret-kracken.livejournal.com 2009-12-15 05:28 pm (UTC)(link)
OMG YES. That's been my favorite piece of art so far, for that very reason :)

[identity profile] sirius-luva.livejournal.com 2009-12-16 02:03 am (UTC)(link)
<3 I like it both for that and for the looks on their faces. *melts*

[identity profile] secret-kracken.livejournal.com 2009-12-16 02:21 am (UTC)(link)
I think I count the looks on their faces as part and parcel with the whole *wry grin*

[identity profile] sirius-luva.livejournal.com 2009-12-16 06:59 am (UTC)(link)
XD it was just... in particular, you could tell from Crowley's face that he absolutely adored Aziraphale, and it turned me into a puddle of goo. <3 But I do get what you mean.

[identity profile] secret-kracken.livejournal.com 2009-12-16 10:47 am (UTC)(link)
Two things come across strongly in his expression: adoration and sheer pride in the fact he's managed to make Aizraphale go squee!

[identity profile] refche.livejournal.com 2009-12-10 08:10 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you so fucking much. ♥ This is so soft and warming and amazing. And being cold with the in-laws is something I can relate to ridiculously well lately. I love that in so few words you've created realistic OCs. Aziraphale was just right, and I love you for painting such an amazing friendship between Adam and Pepper. I love the story. Thank you! I hope you'll have wonderful holidays as well.

[identity profile] secret-kracken.livejournal.com 2009-12-15 01:31 pm (UTC)(link)
OCs are always a pleasure; I'm glad that your request gave me such a perfect opportunity to loose some more of them upon GO Fandom! I'm relieved that you don't mind so much that this isn't set in a non-English-speaking foreign country; for some reason, when I map out a future where Pepper has a girlfriend instead of ending up with Adam (or a guy, period), I see her meeting an American girl.

Happy Holidays once again, my dear *hugs* I have missed you. That might sound weird, but you're not so much on my radar anymore. And that may be my own fault. For this, too, I beg forgiveness.

[identity profile] quantumdoll.livejournal.com 2009-12-10 11:20 am (UTC)(link)
Just gorgeous. This is a lovely, christmasy thing!

[identity profile] secret-kracken.livejournal.com 2009-12-15 01:32 pm (UTC)(link)
You're very welcome ♥ Thank you for reading. Stories about grown-up Pepper that don't involve smut, I find, have a very limited shelf-life/market ;) However, I hope this one will stand up to a bit more virtual page-thumbing.

[identity profile] todd-fan.livejournal.com 2009-12-10 06:47 pm (UTC)(link)
This was a simply beautiful story. The OC were believable and the entire premise was just...wow.

I'm adding this to my memories, well done.

[identity profile] secret-kracken.livejournal.com 2009-12-15 01:33 pm (UTC)(link)
Goodness, I'm flattered. Thank you! I had feared it a little bit on the insubstantial end of the spectrum, as the premise wouldn't support much more length than I had already managed to tease out of it. Happy Christmas!
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[personal profile] amaresu 2009-12-10 08:30 pm (UTC)(link)
This was brilliant. I love the Pepper you've written here and the way their lives turned out. Brilliant.

[identity profile] secret-kracken.livejournal.com 2009-12-15 01:33 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you so much for reading ♥ Glad you enjoyed it!

[identity profile] edna-blackadder.livejournal.com 2009-12-13 07:25 pm (UTC)(link)
This is just beautifully written. In particular, I must echo [livejournal.com profile] refche's comment re: your portrayal of Adam and Pepper's friendship. Perfect. Also, massive squee over Pepper referring to Crowley as Aziraphale's "beautiful boy."

[identity profile] secret-kracken.livejournal.com 2009-12-15 01:35 pm (UTC)(link)
Whatever else they may become in their lives, and whatever future paradigm I'm working with (and I do have several), they remain, as ever, in my mind, the most inseparable of friends. So many thanks! And Happy Christmas, too.

[identity profile] tsuru-san.livejournal.com 2010-01-09 08:17 pm (UTC)(link)
That was such a sweet story. And yes, everything about New England is true. XD

[identity profile] irisbleufic.livejournal.com 2010-02-28 05:27 pm (UTC)(link)
Sorry this response is so late! Thank you for reading :) New England is one of the best places on earth, yes.

[identity profile] ladymouse2.livejournal.com 2010-01-22 08:07 am (UTC)(link)
This is a lovely interlude full of life moments observed pitch-perfect and beautifully described.

The Them have grown up into distinct individuals but I like that there remains at least among some of them a bit of that group identity, that need for reassurance only each other could give; the bond has expanded to give room to fly but remains a deep friendship.

That kind of bonding is present in different guises all through this short but tender piece; Pepper and her Marianne, Pepper and Cleo, Pepper and the absent Adam, and the reference to Crowley, perhaps asleep in the angel's bed on Christmas Eve while Aziraphale does an angel's duties across the world.

I like the casual way Az is just THERE speaking and adjusting the ornament as if he'd always been there and Pepper's lack of surprise at his appearance, the two of them conversing as if they'd been in the middle for some time before.

I like the strangeness of being not only in a home not your own for an important family holiday, but in a country with very different holiday customs and setting, the homesickness held at bay by the pleasure of being with someone so important.

I like the kind of keenly noted details that give both visual interest and a psychological resonance like:

>Her eyes lingered over the crystal beadwork angel that topped off the tree. Its head met the ceiling at an awkward angle, neck bent, giving the whole set-up a graceless, uncertain look.<

That's just plain lovely and sharply clear writing!

It's magical in its mood and introspection, just as Christmas Eve should be.

[identity profile] irisbleufic.livejournal.com 2010-02-28 05:28 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you so much, and a belated Happy Holidays to you! I kind of lost track of keeping up with comments on this entry, so it's high time I got back into the swing of things. You're absolutely right in your assumption here:

and the reference to Crowley, perhaps asleep in the angel's bed on Christmas Eve while Aziraphale does an angel's duties across the world.


Yes. That's exactly where he is <3